Oh I say,
that love can be so truth-less.
And you say,
that love can be so trite.
Oh I say,
that love can be so fruitless.
And you say,
sometimes I think you’re right.
Oh I say,
that love is like a noose end;
You get close,
and then it gets too tight.
And you say,
that love is like a loose end;
The more you try,
the more it frays despite.
Author: Ryan Kozar (Page 6 of 7)
She was born in Winter.
I was too.
But that doesn’t make us anything like 1 in 2.
Cause in truth…
I feel more like maybe… 1 in 5.
Lucky to even make it out alive.
But I’ll cut the jive,
I’m sad.
Never even noticed that
what we had
was something I could miss so bad.
Or want so much.
Something I could never touch…
again.
You could call us friends,
but back and when
it first began
I remember when I held your hand.
I remember I moved your hair out of your eyes.
To my surprise as you lay sleeping,
sound asleep as you were dreaming,
I found out you looked beautiful to me.
It’s strange how it just took so long to see.
Sullen lips and fingertips,
and your discheveled hair;
best thing ’bout it’s you don’t seem to care.
Threw out your lipstick,
and your leather and lace,
cause you know all that beauty’s on your face.
Messed around but haven’t found,
what I been lookin’ for,
but something tells me this ain’t like before.
I’m so broke, but I’m still breathin’,
though I haven’t found a reason,
that I find myself believin’,
cause these loves are so deceivin’.
I’m so lost, and I’m so lonely,
and I hope I’m not the only,
one who’s looking for another,
although not just undercover.
I’m so hexed, but I’m still hopin’.
I’m so hurt, but I been copin’.
I’m so bent, I’m almost broken.
That’s when I find myself outspoken.
I’m so low, but I been livin’,
cause it’s not so hard forgivin’,
I just close my eyes and I stare up,
towards the moon.
Today.
Today is the rest of my life.
Today.
Today is the cause for my strife.
Always,
I’m livin’ blind;
In fear of finding I’m losing my mind.
My soul.
My soul is gone.
There’s a hole in my chest where soul has been withdrawn.
Oh I woke up,
this morning;
And I couldn’t fall back to sleep.
Cause thinkin’s as good as doin’,
and man my thoughts are cheap.
But I can’t sleep,
the deep sleep;
I recall,
before the things I’d seen.
Cause in my dreams there is no end to things;
And man my dreams are free.
Nobody,
is ever gonna find it.
I gotta,
slow down,
or else I will get blinded.
I’m not worried,
I oughta.
Nobody,
has ever wanted my trust,
I oughta,
slow down,
but I don’t wanna bind up.
I’m not hurried,
I wanna.
And he said,
“Come back,
from the dark,
I know what you’ve been looking for,
and you’re never,
gonna find it,
as long as you’ve been blinded.
It’s too bad,
you can’t go back to start,
I know what you’ve been looking for,
but I swear it,
is only but a part,
it’s not what you’ve been looking for.
That something,
is only but a spark,
it’s the flame that you cannot ignore.
But you mustn’t,
go towards the dark,
I swear my son do not depart.”
And I said,
“But I’m so depressed and I’m so stressed with,
what I got,
if it’s all for naught.
And I’ve still been livin’,
but I’m givin’ in,
and I don’t know what to do.”
“Love what you got,” he said,
“You’re livin here and,
no one knows what to do,
we’ve all been livin’,
in this spinnin’ wheel but,
feel we’ll find a way through.”
“But I’m so sad,” I said,
“I’m sorry for those,
soiled, soul-searching days,
I hope tomorrow,
will be better but,
somehow it winds up the same.”
“It’s not so bad,” he said,
“You’re livin’,
you’ve had lovers,
they have loved you.
Stop feeling sorry,
for your sullen heart,
and tomorrow might just be blue.”
Searchin, and hopin,
and thinkin, and prayin.
Surveyin the hillsides,
with options I’m weighin.
Oh day in and day out,
I found there’s not way out,
and I’m way outta line,
and I’m outta turn.
And I burn, and I say,
that this flame will not decay.
And I hope it’s alright,
if I come and stay the night.
But I’m here and you’re there,
and I’ve found I’m unaware,
of the circumstances,
of the other chances,
of all your previous romances.
It’s hard to say and I can’t assume.
I can’t rule out impending doom.
And it’s all for you,
cause you’re all I see,
and it might be true,
but it might be me.
And I might be dizzy,
whirling feet far off the ground.
Lost up from down,
it’s strange how life can spin you round.
There’s nothing left to feel for now.
There’s nothing left to say.
There’s nothing left to do,
to make this longing go away.
I don’t know how to deal with this.
I don’t know what’s okay.
And though I hate this loneliness,
I just can’t pass the days.
It’s set ablaze, I’m so confused
Is it that I let myself get used?
Is it so untrue that it must be false?
Is there anyway it’s any other’s fault?
And I can’t exalt myself from crimes,
when I’ve done the deed.
It’s just this loneliness,
and I’ve found myself in need.
And I know I bleed, and I know I hurt,
And I know that I been down in the dirt,
but I know that dirt will turn to dust,
but it just takes time.
And I’ll dust myself right off,
when the sun starts shinin.
It’s a funny place,
to get thinkin of,
that silly, little thing called love,
but it’s you.
I don’t who you are,
but it’s true.
I don’t care near or far.
And it’s all for some,
but I”m hopin for a few.
And it’s all for one,
and none for you.
Oh it’s all for one,
and you’re just, number two…
… Oh number two,
I been through and through.
And it’s all for you.
It should be all for me.
But you’re what I see.
You’re what I dream of,
even when I’m not alseep.
And I been too deep.
And I been too dark.
Hope I found the flame but,
know I’ve only found a spark.
And few and far between.
And far from here by now.
Far from the dreams I wish,
I dreamed to them to them out loud.
And I been too proud.
And pride can shame.
I’ve overdosed on lust,
but love is what I blame.
And I feel it now.
I feel it deep inside.
I feel that empty spot,
that I thought I could deny.
And so I’m testifyin,
to what I’m finished hidin.
It’s so much harder I feel,
thinkin that this life is ideal.
Oh I’ve questioned, who have I been?
But I’d say I been realizin,
it’s not a question of that I am,
cause I’m me without you I’m findin,
me without you,
didn’t know what I’d do.
And I’ve got this feeling I feel,
but I feel I’ll make it through.
I get goin’ and I get four miles,
but I got a hundred twenty to go.
I’m not sure if I been in denial,
but I do know what I know.
I get thinkin’ about the past,
and I think I should be movin’ on.
There’s nothin’ I need there,
so I better get movin’ along.
Movin’ and shakin’,
bendin’ and breakin’,
Earth quakin’ b’low my feet.
I been searchin’ for the good times,
but it’s so hard to find what you need.
Guess I’ll have to lookin’ every time I’m free.
Guess I’ll have to lookin’ every time I need to feel loved indeed.
Guess I’ll have to lookin’ every time I bleed.
I can’t explain,
all the things she does to my brain.
I can’t recall,
why I even fell for her at all.
Why did I not see,
all the pain she’d bring to me?
I just looked past,
what I didn’t want to see.
Oh and three seemed to be,
the magic number for her.
Just one last kiss,
and then not a word.
And though I’ve found,
that my faith can carry down;
I’ve found that I can find my faith in her.
I can’t explain,
all the ways she’s drivin’ me insane.
Seems like I’ll never be satisfied.
And though I’ve tried,
and tried to take it all in stride,
I always trip when she’s around.
The disgrace shown on his face,
to know her heart but not embrace;
it was a taste of love that just can’t satisfy.
And all his friends are saying,
that the truth is worth delaying,
but if she meant so much then how could he be wrong?
But in truth he doesn’t know a thing,
about what finding her will bring.
He’s just putting all his faith in finding love.
And the stars still shine above,
although one still most of all.
Oh and all because he’s scared she’ll fall away.
But the worst of all her things,
is the torment that she brings,
and she always seems to make him fall apart.
With these fences and his senses say,
he wants but just not today.
She wants him but she doesn’t want his heart.
But if he needs her like he does,
why does he wish she never was?
Because she always seems so close when she’s not there.
With his despair and his deceit,
he’d wish his love was more concrete;
like the ground beneath his feet but she’s thin air.
Oh I can’t sleep because I can’t get you off’a my mind.
Stare into your eyes all day, but your face would leave me blind.
It’s not a question of the girls I left behind.
For you I’d do anything so please don’t waste my time.
You’re the whole of my endeavors,
and you torment me forever;
You always are just standing out of reach.
I’d cross the open ocean,
but I’m torn by this emotion,
cause I don’t think you’d be standing there to see.
And I can’t find an answer to the problems I can’t solve;
It’s all just mathematics, but the pen and paper have dissolved.
And I find no resolve, I only find regret.
I only think you’re perfect cause we haven’t really met.
And I can’t find a reason, I only need a rhyme,
I’m lying in here singing while my dreams leave me behind.
And out there in the sun, oh out there on parade;
Eating all their ice cream and drinking lemonade.
I’ve left those times to far behind I can’t even recall,
stuck here in this cubicle; I’m staring at the wall.
One of but a million leaves,
on one of but a billion trees;
grow me up and blow me round,
I’m spinning till I hit the ground.
Lost here in this dizzy life,
a victim of my own device;
If ever I was meant to fly,
I’d think the time was now.
I wanna go to the ocean.
I wanna live by the see.
I’d forget all my problems
and let them float in the breeze.
But if the breeze isn’t blowin’
or the wind burns my skin
I’ll go stand in the water
till the tide sucks me in.
And if the waves just aren’t breakin
and the tide doesn’t tow
I’ll just sink to the bottom
cause ya know that I’m stoned.
Cause my worries are weighted
and my shoes have worn thin,
and I’m tired of bearing
all this burden I’ve been.
With all this burden I’m bearing,
well my bearings bound up.
All my wheels were in motion.
Now it seems that I’m stuck.
I wanna go to the ocean.
I wanna live by the see.
I’d forget all my problems
and let them float in the breeze.
A million different ways to go,
a million different things to see,
I don’t think I could ever see them all.
A million ways to touch the sky,
a million things that make me cry,
a million different speckles on the wall.
A million girls, a million hearts,
a million thoughts that never start,
a million times I wish I would’ve smiled.
A million trys to face my fears,
if I could live a million years,
then maybe I’d be happy for awhile.
A million hopes, a million dreams,
in a million different magazines,
I’m waiting for the phone to ring,
but I don’t know who will call.
Well I’m in my head all by myself,
my soul is sitting on the shelf,
I’m hopeless but I don’t need help,
and I don’t care who’s at fault.
Well don’t talk to me cause I have no time,
I’m waiting for the sun to shine,
I’ll close my eyes and feel my mind,
I’m out here on the other side.
I’ve lost my pride, I’ve lost my way,
I’m waiting for some sunny day,
where I can fly and I can breath,
I’ll take my soul and never leave.
I’ve lost my faith and here I stand,
a broken will with shaky hands,
and burnt out eyes too black to stare,
but dreams can take me anywhere.
I want to fade into air,
I want to fall like the leaves,
and make me weak in the knees,
but never weaken my mind.
And I’ll find the answers,
and I’ll find the answers,
in time.
And I’ll find the answers,
and I’ll find the answers,
in my mind.
But all I find,
and all I see,
my time has left me behind,
I don’t know who I should be.
So I replaced my fears with facts,
and hopefully now I can relax,
with all this weight that’s off my back,
I feel like I could leap tall buildings.
So I’m gilded here in gold,
and all those truthes I’ve never told,
and if my former soul was sold,
I’d hope a new one soon would fill me.
Please don’t fill me to the the brim,
don’t fill me up just fill me in,
and though I’ve been living here in sin,
I’d like to forget that soul I’ve been.
An angel out of place.
A forgotten disgrace.
An unknown face
in its solitary space.
It had a taste,
but it could not satisfy.
Floating through time,
on the question of why.
It comes across lies,
but the truth can’t be found.
The meaning of life,
is buried deep in the ground.
Look all around;
The present won’t last.
In the dirt
are the centuries past.
Good times will fade.
Bad times will die.
Life will go on;
There’s no reason to cry.